Siblings

(L to R: Sarah, Crosby, Adam, Julia)

"It was nice growing up with someone like you, someone to lean on,
someone to count on... someone to tell on!"

-Unknown

I'm re-watching the first season of Parenthood and it's surprising the similarities I see in the Beaverman siblings and my own. 


I see Josh as the Adam of the family.  He's the family man you works as the glue of the siblings.  He is the problem solver and friend, but knows how to relax and have fun when needed.


Johnny is like Crosby, he's always in over his head, but tries to set things straight.  He's made a lot of mistakes in his past (and present), but he's learning and making a better life for himself.  He learns to overcome.


Now seeing that there are four siblings on the show and only 3 of us, I see a lot of both Sarah and Julia in myself.  With Sarah you have an artist who wants be successful with something for once and is still learning who she is, while Julia is established and set in her ways, but is learning to let her hair down.


Together though, all of the siblings work.  Sure they fight, cry, love, laugh, scream, and care for each other, but at the end of the day they come together and they just work.  Plain and simple.


Below is one of my favorite clips (from Season 2) and it's how just how I imagine my family, maybe not exactly, but close enough.

Josh and Johnny (Bri and Anna too) I love you guys and I'm so happy to have you in my life.  I miss you and can't wait for us all to be reunited again :)

Can Openers Make Good Screwdrivers

"They confiscated everything, even the stuff we didn't steal!"

-Hoover, Animal House

I'm sorry that my posts aren't as often as I would like, but I really am trying to work on that.  This past week has been super busy.  Here's the run down.  Since last Saturday (8 days ago), I have moved 5 people to 1 storage unit and 4 different house in 7 days.  This includes 1 broken object (a lightbulb), 1 incident while parking, a swollen toe (kicked a cement block), and 1 battle wound (a bruise on my thigh).  All I have to say is I'm happy to be done, even if it's only for a little bit, because I'm sore and tired as heck.

My plan for this week is to relax and watch movies after work, enjoy some volleyball on Tuesday after Devo, study up on the upcoming football seasons, and hopefully finish The Wizard of Oz (which I'm 3 chapters into).  I might even do more research into Maroon 5 and their tour schedule...which just shows that when I think my small obsession with Adam Levine isn't ending anytime soon, even though I thought it was.  Oh and I plan on posting another blog later this week after I rewatch more of Parenthood Season 1, that one should be entertaining.

Now, I'm gonna finish the night with a movie I hope is wicked awesome, Paranormal Activity 2.  And yes, I'm prepared to not sleep for the next week, it's so exciting, lol!

It's been awhile...

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"I've always thought my soundtracks do pretty good, because they're basically professional equivalents of a mix tape I'd make for you at home."- Quentin Tarantino

If your life were a movie, what songs would be on the soundtrack?

According to iTunes:

-Opening Credits: A Thing For Me by Metronomy

-Waking Up: I Know Where I've Been from Hairspray

-First Day of School: Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana

-Falling In Love: A Pirate Looks At Forty by Jack Johnson

-Fighting: Be There by Howie Day

-Breaking Up: Now I'm Here by Queen

-Prom: F**k Her Gently by Tenacious D

-Life: My Drug Buddy by The Lemonheads

-Mental Breakdown: Flying Without Wings by Ruben Studdard

-Driving Scene: Say Yes! To Michigan by Sufjan Stevens

-Flashback: Bright Lights by Matchbox Twenty

-Making Up: You Make Me Feel Like Dancing by Leo Sayer

-Wedding: Who Knows by Zac Brown Band

-Birth of a Child: Give Me Words To Speak by Aaron Shust

-Final Battle: You'll Be In My Heart by Phil Collins and Glenn Close

-Death Scene: When I Get Through With You by Patsy Cline

-Funeral: Unchanging One by Todd Agnew

-Ending Credits: Love And Marriage by Frank Sinatra

According to my GrooveShark playlist:

-Opening Credits: Mmm by Laura Izibor

-Waking Up: Blow by Ke$ha

-First Day of School: Like A G6 by Far East Movement

-Falling In Love: Home by Michael Buble

-Fighting: Won't Go Home Without You by Maroon 5

-Breaking Up: Dreaming With A Broken Heart by John Mayer

-Prom: Family Portrait by Pink

-Life: We Takin' Over by DJ Khaled

-Mental Breakdown: Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat

-Driving Scene: Forget You by Cee Lo Green

-Flashback: Someone Else's Life by Joshua Radin

-Making Up: How It Ends by DeVotchKa

-Wedding: Welcome To The Black Parade by My Chemical Romance

-Birth Of Child: Little Lion Man by Mumford & Sons

-Final Battle: Dreams by Fleetwood Mac

-Death Scene: Wind And Rain by Gillian Welch

-Funeral: Honeybee by Blake Shelton

-End Credits: King Of Anything by Sara Bareilles

"It's okay if you mess up. You should give yourself a break."- Billy Joel

"You, my friend, are a victim of disorganized thinking. You are under the unfortunate impression that just because you run away you have no courage; you're confusing courage with wisdom."

- The Wizard, Wizard of Oz

Neville Longbottom, Hurley (Hugo), Charlie Brown, and the Cowardly Lion.  These are all (fictional) people/creatures I've been thinking a lot about in the past week.  Not because they were background people in their stories, but because of the courage and strength they developed over time.  I look up to them.  I mean, yes there are real life people I look up to for these characteristics as well, but sometimes it's easier to understand the person when they aren't "real."  

Anywho another thing I've noticed is the funny memories that a movie, song, or saying can bring about.  I'll be at work and start cracking up over a memory triggered by a song (Adwoa and Jaime can vouch for that), or how watching part of The Hangover makes me think about classes I took at FSU.  Some songs have been related to family members or even Paddington Bear.  I enjoy the fact that I get to make new memories out of old ones with my niece (who I get to hangout with for a week in July!).  I'm really hoping that The Gingerbread Man is one of her favorite books when she's older.

Lastly, the best way to end this rainy day would have to be curled up in bed watching The Hangover :)

Summer Wordless Wednesday

"Never say you're fine when you're not okay. Never say you feel good when you feel bad. And never say you're alone when GOD is next to you."- Madea Simmons

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
So love the people who treat you right and forget the ones that don't and believe that everything happens for a reason.
If you get a chance,
Take it.
If you it changes your life,
Let it.
Nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."
- Anonymous

I'm learning.  I'm learning a lot actually.  Life is handing me plenty of lemons to make lemonade with, some of them I'm letting rot before using, others I'm using before they're ripe enough (I can be bad with analogies sometimes so pardon me if this gets too corny for you)*.  I'm learning to let things happen in God's time and to not take things so seriously, or more seriously depending on the issue.

In the past week I've been on a roller coaster, and I'm not just saying this because I drove Trestle Ridge Road to get to McCartney Resort this week, which will make your stomach turn if you're under the right circumstances.  I've felt physical pain (stepped on glass), been physically exhausted (spent probably 22+ hours in a car this weekend), emotionally exhausted (was scolded by several friends over an incident where I didn't think to use my better judgement), and overwhelmed with joy (got to hangout with Mallory and watch Katie and Chris get married).  I want to stop hitting these road blocks in my mind that people have started pointing out  to me, which I'm appreciating at the same time.  I want to work past my fears, not just look them in the eye, but legitimately stand up to them.  I just don't know how to do that though.  I talk it out with Becca, Sam, Justin, Dave and Josh (when we're actually able to talk), but they still haunt me before I close my eyes at night.

While I'm not scared of the future, I'm scared of what the future may bring to me, especially since I won't have school on my mind when August comes around.  I'm scared of losing Justin when he leaves for OCS, because he's always there to keep me calm since Mallory and Josh aren't in town.  I'm scared that I won't be strong enough to improve and change what I need to to stay a strong influential Christian to my peers, because God knows I have a ton to improve upon.  I'm starting to lose faith in myself as an individual, but not in Christ, which is a plus I guess.

I don't know, sometimes I just feel so beaten down even when I'm having a good day, week, month, or year (haha, now I have the Friends theme song running through my head).  A surprising up lifter though came from Adam W this weekend though.  During a talk in the parking lot after the wedding/reception festivities ended Mallory and Adam were poking fun at me (what's new, eh?) when Adam said: Sometimes I think we take too much credit away from Lynn.  It made me feel like maybe in all my clumsiness over the last 5 years, all of my failures with school, that maybe I had/have been doing something right.  I mean I know I'm an easy target (Come on, how many people do you know who can swallow a thumbtack, or get hit by a bird while driving, or trip over her own two feet every single day?), but just to hear someone actually say something like that made me just feel at ease with my troubles, even if it was only for a second.

I'm not meaning for this to sound depressing, it's not meant to be.  And I don't want a pity party either.  I just needed to get these thoughts out of my head and since I'm not sure when I'll be walking Lake Ella again (Sam, make it happen) as my therapy for verbal diarrhea/thinking session blogging was the next best thing.  I mean I'm actually sitting here chuckling at myself.  Sometimes I feel crazy when I write blogs like this, other times I feel average, and then there are nights like tonight when I wish Freud were still alive to do a study on me just because I know he'd have a field day.

*SIGH*, yup, my big sigh of relief.  Hopefully now I can get a good nights rest, although I still think I'm having night terrors after watching Paranormal Activity a couple of weeks ago.

Oh and lastly, anyone want to see Mr. Popper's Penguins with me this week!?  Think about it Jim Carrey AND one of my favorite animals Penguins!  Okay, just let me know if you're down, we can talk day and times later :) 

*My favorite bad analogy came 3 years ago when I was moving into McCartney Motel.  Adam and Mallory were helping me move furniture and it was 1-2am when I said "Oh yeah, what does that have to do with the price of soap in Africa" trying to be wittier than just saying "the cost of tea in China."  Let's just say it didn't work out the way I had planned, lol.