My Last Two Weeks...in a nutshell

Depression symptoms include:

• Feelings of sadness or unhappiness ✔
• Irritability or frustration, even over small matters ✔
• Loss of interest or pleasure in normal activities ✔
• Reduced sex drive
• Insomnia or excessive sleeping ✔
• Changes in appetite — depression often causes decreased appetite and weight loss, but in some people it causes increased cravings for food and weight gain ✔
• Agitation or restlessness — for example, pacing, hand-wringing or an inability to sit still
• Slowed thinking, speaking or body movements ✔
• Indecisiveness, distractibility and decreased concentration ✔
• Fatigue, tiredness and loss of energy — even small tasks may seem to require a lot of effort ✔
• Feelings of worthlessness or guilt, fixating on past failures or blaming yourself when things aren't going right ✔
• Trouble thinking, concentrating, making decisions and remembering things ✔
• Frequent thoughts of death, dying or suicide
• Crying spells for no apparent reason ✔
• Unexplained physical problems, such as back pain or headaches ✔

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/depression/DS00175/DSECTION=symptoms

Where is the love?

"Lord teach Your children, to stop the fighting, start uniting all as one.  Let's get together, loving forever..."

- Sanctuary

I always feel that all I do is complain when I write, but at least I'm being real, and that's what truly matter...right? Dear reader please know that my blogs will start to become less negative once football season is officially here (Thank God for that).

Please know that I care for you, all of you, my friends, deeply, however if I seem distracted, depressed, not myself, or just like not talking, it's nothing you did, it's something I'm trying to work through.  I've recently found out about a situation that indirectly involves me, but has deeply troubled me.  I know it's during this time that I should rely on God, and yes I KNOW I should, but it's just so difficult.  I suddenly feel like I've hit a wall.  I see him through the window shouting words of encouragement to me in the form of my friends and my daily Bible reading, but for some reason I can't open the door/window.  I WANT TO SO BAD, but something keeps pulling me back.  The worst part is I'm not even sure how I want this situation to play out.

On the plus side of things (when I'm not upset about said family situation) I've made it a goal to read a chapter of the Bible every night before I go to bed thanks to the help of AFC small groups and our special guests Becca and Teri.  Every night between 10pm-12am Becca texts me when she does her reading so that I can remember to do mine.  I in turn text Courtney, who texts Paige.  My lovely roommate Sam does something similar with Justin.  We're starting a trend and holding each other accountable so that we can grow as Christians.  So far I've read James, Jude, and I'll be finishing 1 John this week.  I think I'm going to go Old Testament next.

Ugh I just wish I could escape for a little bit so I could figure things out, but such is life.  Also, when I'm ready to talk, I will, until then just understand I need your prayers.

Mue Mèkredi! (translation: Wordless Wednesday!)

Siblings

(L to R: Sarah, Crosby, Adam, Julia)

"It was nice growing up with someone like you, someone to lean on,
someone to count on... someone to tell on!"

-Unknown

I'm re-watching the first season of Parenthood and it's surprising the similarities I see in the Beaverman siblings and my own. 


I see Josh as the Adam of the family.  He's the family man you works as the glue of the siblings.  He is the problem solver and friend, but knows how to relax and have fun when needed.


Johnny is like Crosby, he's always in over his head, but tries to set things straight.  He's made a lot of mistakes in his past (and present), but he's learning and making a better life for himself.  He learns to overcome.


Now seeing that there are four siblings on the show and only 3 of us, I see a lot of both Sarah and Julia in myself.  With Sarah you have an artist who wants be successful with something for once and is still learning who she is, while Julia is established and set in her ways, but is learning to let her hair down.


Together though, all of the siblings work.  Sure they fight, cry, love, laugh, scream, and care for each other, but at the end of the day they come together and they just work.  Plain and simple.


Below is one of my favorite clips (from Season 2) and it's how just how I imagine my family, maybe not exactly, but close enough.

Josh and Johnny (Bri and Anna too) I love you guys and I'm so happy to have you in my life.  I miss you and can't wait for us all to be reunited again :)

Can Openers Make Good Screwdrivers

"They confiscated everything, even the stuff we didn't steal!"

-Hoover, Animal House

I'm sorry that my posts aren't as often as I would like, but I really am trying to work on that.  This past week has been super busy.  Here's the run down.  Since last Saturday (8 days ago), I have moved 5 people to 1 storage unit and 4 different house in 7 days.  This includes 1 broken object (a lightbulb), 1 incident while parking, a swollen toe (kicked a cement block), and 1 battle wound (a bruise on my thigh).  All I have to say is I'm happy to be done, even if it's only for a little bit, because I'm sore and tired as heck.

My plan for this week is to relax and watch movies after work, enjoy some volleyball on Tuesday after Devo, study up on the upcoming football seasons, and hopefully finish The Wizard of Oz (which I'm 3 chapters into).  I might even do more research into Maroon 5 and their tour schedule...which just shows that when I think my small obsession with Adam Levine isn't ending anytime soon, even though I thought it was.  Oh and I plan on posting another blog later this week after I rewatch more of Parenthood Season 1, that one should be entertaining.

Now, I'm gonna finish the night with a movie I hope is wicked awesome, Paranormal Activity 2.  And yes, I'm prepared to not sleep for the next week, it's so exciting, lol!

It's been awhile...

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